i think i would've made a pass....
then again, no i wouldn't of,
back then knowing i was literally failing algebra, pre algebra, there
would've been no sense in my raising a ruckus in your life.
thus, if only "good will hunting" had come out there and then.
looking back now at her size, my size, our hair color, complexion, well i
must say maybe quite the few persons thought us two would've made a
couple.
well she's married (that i recall), i'm married. i often wonder like
moments ago, what could've happened, (short of a beautiful afternoon
somewhere, anywhere back in high school days). who knows, maybe she was
that good will hunting love of a lifetime and i didn't stop to realize it.
believe me i was dating at the time with a voluptious italian. many years
later i found a picture of anna mahler, gustavs wife. wow, all i can say
is
wow, my high school sweetheart and gustavs wife looked almost identical.
expressionism, ya know.
i'm remembering a woman who stood next to me while at the cape cod mall,
on
a stage as we like everyone else on stage was dressed for "carnival",
presented by the d-y regional high school class of 1985 on down.
way back when the mspca had walk a thons at the sagamore bridge walk
trail,
as i was giving a dog water, there she was with her tank top hanging down.
nary a word between us, but the memory remains.
i read she became a nurse of some sorts.
i'm still wondering why it was one day entering my home, she was standing
in
my bathroom over the washer machine putting a blue ****rt of mine in there.
when she took sight of me, she looked in my eyes and promptly without
words,
left the house. we weren't even dating, let alone talking daily, we
weren't
at the time.
rest assured, there is a reason why in the movie "signs" with mel gibson,
that little kid with asthma survived the gas attack by the alien.
rest assured, there is a reason why my wife has cerebral palsy, is
sometimes
mistaken for kristy mcnichol in her younger years. i've seen many a photo
of leonda on a sailboat and i'm convinced.
*news: cnn states the body of a japanese man was found, beheaded of
course.
i remember the days when i was chatting with a fellow queen fan from
japan.
why just last week it was, when asked what songs from their solo works did
i
like, i mentioned the song "la japaniose" is another reason why i wanted
to
go there. then, that story broke out about the hostage.
i told them then back in the days of war words, not to be so "mean" to me,
i
wasn't there for war with them, anyone. i was spending my time trying to
fuse-weld a relation of music and national worldwide safety in the name of
non leths.
"starfleet, starfleet" was a song by brian may based on a japanese
cartoon.
not to be confused with the starfleet cartoon series here in america from
japan during the early eighties. i wonder what los alamos scientist uncle
in law chris morris, once brought into discussion over in china about bin
laden. no, chris didn't go there, it was a mixture of words about the
need
for non leths in this world and why bin laden was out blasting us to bits
in
new york.
it's 3:23 p. m., i recall being up at 3:15 a. m. this morning, looking at
headlights out here south of me and then, it was 3:16 when the vehicle
took
off.
if i could be any one amphibian, it would be a dolphin but, someday i
might
need a tuxedo, tuxedo, penguin, penguin, john alexander, 3:16, john, the
verse by a christian bible. any bible.
oh, john alexander is or was a big heavyweight in non lethals who was
working with janet and chris morris, the same two who for some reason when
i
was a toddler, appeared to me then at the age they are now. at of all
places, that liquor store - conveniance store in eastham by the traffic
lights next to the windmill. it was there i met leonda...
there is a reason after all.
william k. mahler
south yarmouth, mass.
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